E15 - Tumps Neckussy

Some will say this week had too many topics. Some will say not one was finished. No-one can say it's not undiagnosed ADHD on a podcast.

This weeks Fuck That's Funny: Trumps neckussy.

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Hey, hello and welcome to the NIE podcast. Holy shit, we've had some technical difficulties, family, but we're here. I thought it wasn't gonna happen for a second there. I was already running late. But hey, we're here. You with me, your old mate CJ, and hope you've had a fucking beautiful beautiful week. I've had a wee um tattoo around with my fucking recording set up again. So we're actually back where it all began. In the fucking closet. We're back in the closet, family. We came out of the closet just to re-enter the closet. Cause um yeah, I'll just I'm just gonna give it a go. I've tried outside the closet, it's too fucking echoey. So I'm hoping this is gonna give me the results that I would like. But um, you know, for anyone thinking of exiting the closet, like it was definitely worth a fucking go. But yeah, I'm going back. I'm go I've gone back, I've gone back. Anyways, that's enough about um the closet. Fucking hell. What a week that has been. There was a full moon. Did anybody else feel fucking hectic with the full moon? Mate, that's been that was the theme of the week straight up was the fucking full moon. Just blowing emotions out of proportion. I even re recognized like some men um getting a little, you know, just I don't know. I think it had some effects on I know it has effects on women, me personally. Um, but like yeah, it was quite interesting to witness. But yeah, anyways, we're full we're through the full moon, thank goodness for that. And um big changes, big changes this week. I'm pretty sure nobody from my work listens to this, so I can say this and release it, but um I've just sent off my resignation tonight. I have in fact secured a job which gave me um is gonna give me some extra opportunities, fam, and I'm fucking equal amounts like excited and scared and sad because like I only have to give two weeks notice at my work and I've given that and but in two weeks I'm gonna be leaving like all these people that I started getting to know and have got to know and people that have been like real massive in like my nervous system regulating in this little town, and um yeah, some people I've grown real fond of in like the six months that I've worked there. Well, actually, it's shy of six months just um but yeah it's really weird. Like usually I leave a job when I'm like pissed off, can't fucking deal with it anymore. I'm like fuck you guys. Um and this time round it looks completely different. Like, um yeah, like I don't need to leave. I'm like I'm all good where I am, but this other opportunity came about and I was like, fuck it, I'm gonna apply for it. They said that they actually had somebody else teed up for the job next minute I'm in for an interview, next minute I've got the job, and uh handing in my fucking resignation. Crazy, crazy times, but it just goes to show like being open to opportunity and like where that can actually get you sometimes, like yeah, pretty and a m pretty amazing, pretty amazing, and I'm super grateful, super thankful that I've been like given this opportunity and um yeah giving uh giving myself the opportunity too to like leave a workplace and um I don't know like on like really really really fucking good terms it's bizarre bizarre to me but hey anyways that's fucking that's where I'm at this week. I nearly put an offer in on a house too, but I've um made the decision to take a step back for that from that just for a little bit. Um yeah, it's shown me that even if you have the fucking deposit, if you have a deposit there, if your Kiwi Saver's cranked, and you have a deposit, um, not that like my Kiwi Saver's cranking or anything, but um even if you're there, like having a bit of a backstop, there's some extra expenses, especially if you're using your Kiwi Saver. So like um solicitors' fees, if you're gonna get a building report. There is also another report you have to get if you're going in on like a 10% deposit. Um yeah. So like need in needing a bit of a backstop, and also I do like to have like a little bit of a um emergency fund these days, like being a responsible human being. Um if anything happened like with my dog or with my car or whatever, I like having a little bit there, or like some sort of random bill that pops up that you didn't realise, yeah. Yeah. So that's where I'm at with that. I've made the decision to put that on pause, which feels really nice. Like it felt very hectic and there was a bit of a bit of pressure coming from the real estate agent to like get a an offer in last minute. Well not last minute, but um what's the word? Like in very quick, like it was literally I went and had a look at the house, and then it was like offers close um fucking 1 pm tomorrow or something like that, or the day after tomorrow, and it's like ha, I don't I just I want to pull out based on that alone. I don't like rushing anymore. Which who the fuck am I? Because that was the only way to get anything done in the past. It was like um it was like everything was urgent, everything was an emergency, but I don't know. Now I'm kind of realizing just like actually practicing what I preach, eh? Practicing what I preach and just slowing slowing things down like there literally is no harm in slowing shit down. So yeah, I'm I'm finishing the week feeling pretty fulfilled. I had a really nice weekend. Um and yeah, just I've fucking I've rested up too. Like I've rested up, which is exactly what I needed. Um Yeah. Fucking out of it. On my scroll journeys this week, I saw that uh a band that I've mentioned on here, James, is fucking coming to New Zealand on no other month but my birthday month. I believe it's like the 18th or something of October, or it's like in the teens anyways, uh, on a Thursday, which of all days, that's a fucking weird day to like anyways. But they're only coming to Auckland. What the fuck? Like, what is up with big bands? Like, I get it, I get it, Auckland's like the big smoke of New Zealand, but like come on. Cause for us, South Islanders, like, that's a big expense, especially for those of us that are like outside of like well fuck pretty much anywhere but Christchurch, really. Does Dunedin have cheap flights? They're a big city. Nelson I know is fucking expensive to get in and out of, because there's only one airline now. It was better when Jet Star was there, but now there's only fucking Air New Zealand, they hold the the whatever that is, like when they've got the fucking everything and no competition. So it's expensive, but yeah, fucking come on bands, hook it up, like come to Christchurch or something or something. Like, just so that us South Islanders have the option to like not have to fly and even just fucking that we don't have to go to Auckland, like please fucking Auckland is Auckland is Auckland, okay? And um like Christchurch is Christchurch too, but it's not as fucking much as Auckland. Auckland is a fucking lot. And uh yeah. But anyways, that is what it is. It would be cool if that fucking that would be amazing. Like that would be so amazing if I could see James after just talking about it on my podcast. That literally like I think like maybe four people listen to this podcast, but you know what? That's a solid fucking more than zero. Hey, hell yeah. Um, and also shout out to everybody that is listening, like thank you so much, and thank you for your feedback too. It is frickin' appreciated, and very much appreci. Um Yeah, what else has happened? I got a text from my phone provider uh saying about did you know you sent a text through space this month? And honestly, fuck that rubbed mount the wrong way. I'm I won't call them out because like they're big enough to like fucking sue me if that's a thing. Like if I fucking talk shit about them. But like um, you know shit, Sherlock, because your fucking phone towers have been down that much that like there was you I automatically go onto satellite and there was no other option at that time. Like I sent a text message and it's sent through fucking space and I do not give a fuck. I don't give a fuck. And you rubbed salt in the wound trying trying to fucking say that it was this amazing thing, but straight up it wouldn't have happened if your phone fucking thing operated as it should have. So suck a dick. Anyways, anyways, fucking I'm a bit serious at the moment, eh? There's a lot going on. I'm scared about this change. I'm scared about this change. Even though sometimes like sometimes good change can be just as scary as bad change. Like I was talking to somebody about how like um for some people, and I relate to this, like doing something that has is familiar to you, but fucking hurts you, but like if you jump outside of that, it's so scary and you don't know what might happen, even though it might be the best thing ever that may have happened to you. But like us as humans, we're creatures of habit, so we will stay in a familiar pain instead of jumping to an unfamiliar like pleasure or happiness or whatever. Like it's fucking weird. Yeah, so we were talking about I was saying about like um when the fear of staying the same outweighs the fear of change, like that's when things start moving. Things start fucking moving. And uh yeah. In other news, I found crabcore, that's fucking weird. Um found crabcore. It's like a real weird switch up, but yeah, found crabcore. It it was not what you probably think it is. It's pretty much deathcore. And um yeah, but like, oh fuck, it's so sick. I came across these kids on Instagram doing this. They had um that is it pit bull? Yeah, I think it's pit bull, like did the and then they like get the they're like bum bum bum on their guitars. I'm like, oh what is this? Who are these little fucking new age emos? I love it. And yeah, they were fucking sick. I would give them a shout out on here, but I can't remember who the fuck they were, but it was very cool, and somebody in the comments said about crabcore, and um, so yeah, I looked it up and it's fucking sick. Like that is going on that is being saved so that I can listen to it at the gym. It is exactly what I want in a gym playlist. Fucking hell yeah. And it's written uh um it's apparently called crabcore because when they like bend down and like do this like wide-leg stance and it's like headbanging, but it's like slow, but they like bob up and down like crabs. Yeah, apparently that's like the lore of crabcore. Um crabcore's name, rather. Speaking of fucking missing words out, I realized that I incriminated myself this time on last week's episode when I was talking about wanting to smash the old man's windscreen in. And I said in there, like at one point in time, like I did, and then I listened back to it. I was like, oh, I've I've fucking done it again. I've fucking done it again. Like I didn't smash the old man's windscreen in. I'm just gonna clear my name right now. I didn't smash his windscreen in. Um the yeah, the words that I missed out in that was like I wanted to. Like, I did want to. But anyways, um Anyways. Fucking hell. I really don't have much to speak about this week. Like I'm just um oh to be honest, I'm fucking I'm a little bit away with the fairies. Like I'm a little bit fucking loved up, and I've been a little bit hesitant to say anything on the podcast because some things need to be sacred from this podcast. But um, oh man, I met somebody and we've been kind of hanging out, and um I'm just sitting here like grinning like a little fucking gremlin. But yeah, it's been really, really nice and like taking things slowly, like I just said before, like taking things slowly. Ah my usual go-to type are fucking narcissists, and it's really nice to not be fucking dating a narcissist. And I use the word dating because like yeah, I don't know, and it's weird to like even just be dating and not be completely consumed and like have that sense of urgency to like need to lock it down. Um yeah, like sparks be flying fam, and I'm like fucking oh yeah. Yeah, it's an out-of-it experience actually, and um the man's made it through two hormonal cycles so Oh my gosh, and like the fucking disorganized attachment style too. I don't know, have I talked at all about disorganized attachment style on here? I'm not too sure. That's what I fucking have, anyways. So, like, if you don't know about attachment theory, there's anxious attachment, there's avoidant attachment, and then there's disorganized attachment, which is fearful avoidant attachment. So it apparently is like 5% of the population and winner winner chicken dinner, that's me. Um, because my fucking upbringing was so inconsistent and a bit hostile and um yeah, so I now have like the the fucking thing of like um it's like this push and pull thing of like where closeness feels too scary, but also too much distance feels scary also. So like the distance triggers the anxious attachment in me and then the too closeness triggers like the avoidant in me. Like both are like both are triggering abandonment wounds, I believe. Oh actually, I think the avoidant is like fear of losing independence. But um yeah, fuck. It's so hectic, like, to live with, but it's really nice to be able to take the time with myself and work through some of that stuff too. Um Yeah, like because usually and with narcissism being like all consuming too, like fucking narcissists tend to just wanna like well the love bombing, the fucking everything, just to like get you locked down so that they can start just fucking tearing away your everything, self-esteem and all that. Um but like yeah, with the with the like dating of narcissists, it tends to like trigger, I guess, that anxious attachment style. And so I latch on and then it becomes too fucking consuming and I push away, which to be completely honest, has probably kept me I don't want to say safe because it I've still fucking dated the narcissist. And the last one may or may not have ended up in me getting fucking robbed and having to move cities um and lose my whole business, but fucking I guess in the sense of like not spending ridiculously prolonged amounts of times, like years and years and years, and creating families and buying fucking houses and getting tied into these relationships, like yeah, something has kept me safe in that sense. Maybe my hard power, I don't fucking know. Maybe my emotional damage, I don't fucking know. Definitely my support people, holy shit, thank goodness for counsellors and s and yeah, other people, fucking beautiful friends and that. But um, yeah, I digress as per usu. Yeah, so it's been it's been interesting and like noticing that sort of thing coming up, working through it. My s my um a good friend of mine a little while ago when I was thinking about boosting to Perth, I think I said that like she was saying just stay. Like just stay. And I'm trying to practice that in like all of my affairs, like across my whole life, just stay. Like so long as it's fucking healthy, like I don't wanna like my no-go areas are like abuse and that sort of stuff, but um yeah, just staying places, and I guess maybe that's why there's like that these conflicting emotions with changing workplaces because like I have stayed through like a little bit of things that have happened, like some difficult things that have happened, but work through that, um, used it for growth and like overcome it and continued on like all good. Um so yeah, like moving on to like a better opportunity is real strange at the moment. Um but yeah, yeah, so that's kind of like where I'm at in my life, is I'm fucking dating someone. I broke my year celibacy thing that I was going for. I was going for like fucking um I was going for a year celibacy. I think I would like made made this oath with myself um last year when I realized like holy fuck I think I've got a problem with like dating and relationships and stuff. Um so did that for my recovery. I also I forgot about this until the other week actually, and I thought about it. I wrote myself some vows. Like, as weird as That may sound, or as airy fairy, like that is literally what I did. I wrote myself some vows, the same as you would write somebody that you're fucking marrying, and like I made the decision that I was gonna be there for myself like I'd always wished somebody else would be there for me, like become my own best friend, show up for myself, support myself in whatever ventures um I wanted to go on, or venture adventures. I don't actually know if that's the right word, but um yeah, just support myself, fucking and just be excited about living the rest of my life with myself. Um to to love myself even in the downs, like as well as the ups. And yeah, it's weird how like an exercise like that and reading through like I I kept them, I had this like walk-in wardrobe, and like I kept them in there and I would fucking remind like read them every now and again. And it was I guess this just self-affirmation for uh self-love and showing up for myself. Yeah. Yeah. So anyways, but yeah, and then I got to the point where I'd started going to the gym and that, and um which by the way, side note, haven't fucking gone this week, but because of the hormones, I've taken it easy on myself, and I figured a week off is all good. And then this next week, according to the things that I've seen come up on social media and all that, um, next week is like the fucking strong week, and I love the strong week. Hey, hidden some PBs, testosterone's apparently the highest for women, um, like after your cycle, and yeah, so fucking uh I digress again, but yeah, I just started going to the gym, I'd fucking worked through that like I tended to have a crush all the time, and I kind of looked at that and worked through that with ChatGPT and some support people and realized that like my always wanting to have a crush was like this have like this pseudo connection, like um, like it was in place of like actually having real human connection that I was wanting and desired, but my brain would like fill that in with like yeah, I don't know, a fucking crush. It was weird. So I'd got to the end of that and then along comes this person who was yeah who was actually one of the crushes um who was the most recent crush that I'd kind of worked through and like let go of and um yeah then actually got to know this person, I was like, oh shit. Like hung out once and I was like, oh no. Oh no. Oh fuck. I was I was all good being single. Like I'd literally said to ChatGPT, like I am at a point now where I don't think I want the complications of a relationship. Like I'm happy just doing me and learning how to do CJ and Yeah, looking after myself, like learning how to actually properly look after myself. But the fucking universe has a sense of humor, eh? Like the whatever you want to call the fucking higher power that you believe in. The one that I believe in fucking has a sense of humour, man. Cause yeah. Well here we are. Here we fucking are. Anyways, that's enough of the rambles. It's time for fuck that's funny. Well, guys, like lots of little funny things happened, but nowhere near the fucking hysterics that I was in last week about old mate getting sick over the back of the head. Um fucking still gets me straight up. But today I was watching uh Kill Tony and the episode with Donald Trump uh with Shane Gillis as Donald Trump and Biden uh oh fuck, what's his fucking name? Oh my gosh, his name just completely eludes me right now. But yeah, with Biden and uh fucking what a laugh man, what a absolute laugh. But I've just just scrolling through um Facebook uh Instagram before and up pops this little post, right, that says Japan's corn, you can fill in the yeah, censoring AI automatically pixelate pixelates Trump's neck whenever he bears whenever he appears on TV. And straight up you need to fucking look at these photos. I'll um I'll find a way of like fucking copying this link and I'll post it to my Facebook page. And I don't know, I fucking chucked it into Google and it says the claim that Japanese television AI censorship automatically pixelated pixelates Donald Trump's neck, making his neck folds for or mistaking his neck folds for adult content is a viral internet joke. There is no verified evidence that Japanese broadcasters actually use such a system and the viral clips are widely considered to be edited isolated glitches or taken out of context. But straight up, whoever did that, like I don't give a fuck, eh? Cause fucking seeing Brian Tamaki with big fake ass titties, sometimes the fake news can be just as entertaining as the fucking real news. But oh, and so we've got in the comment section. We've got I fucking love a good comment section read. Careful, Trump might grab it. Oh fucking Oh shit. Um we've got we've got uh tr their AI analyzed millions of pictures and said, I know a pussy when I say Oh fuck's sakes. Yeah. Oh no, um not the neck pussy. Yeah, fucking hell. I've never seen anyone that has to tuck their neck into their shit Trump pussy. Oh my gosh, the trussy get mad. Yeah, holy shit. Somebody else said thought he was a dirt, but turns out he's a puss Fucking hell. Yeah, that's fucking brilliant. Somebody else said an insult to Volva everywhere. Oh god Oh my gosh. Yeah, somebody put like a gif of arigato Yeah, straight up fuck, that's good. Anyways, just a little fucking little um yeah, just a little fucking fuck that's funny for this week. I'll keep my eyes out for this week for you's um I haven't checked my Facebook page, but I'll I'll fucking try and remember to do that. I'll upload this right now, this fucking neckussie. Uh no, yeah, the Trump pussy. Trump neckussy. And I hope you guys have a beautiful week. This one was a bit of a fucking ramble for half an hour, but hey, I'm here, I'm doing it. I said some things and stuff and that into the microphone, and that's what it's fucking all about, families. So I hope you's all get out there and smash it. I hope you's find, even if it's not romantic love, man, uh there's fucking love and care and beautiful things out there everywhere. Maybe it's a fucking rainbow, maybe it's a little white feather on the ground. That's a shout-out to my mate Aaliyah, because white feathers always remind me of her. And um yeah, just fucking, I don't know, life, baby. We live on a fucking we live in a science fiction movie, and I think it's yep. It's there to be appreciated and loved. And uh, yeah, I hope you feel the love this week. Anyways, peace and love, everybody. That's me. I you will you will fuck, I haven't fucked that up in a while. You will hear me on the next one. Bye.